PREGOREXIA?

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is anyone else suffering from this? i have had an eating disorder since i was 7... and it hasnt gone away.. it effects me and now my unborn baby... i suffer from bulimia mostly now.. i try so hard not to purge cuz i kno the risks but this disease has full control and i dont kno what to do.....i have a daughter already shes 4... when i was pregnant with her i was able to let go of most of my fears but i dont kno why my ED actually got worse this time.....im so scared that my bulimia is gona harm my baby.....i feel so alone . im not a bad mom i kno im not....its just this disease..... i dont kno how to control this anymore :"(
i dont wana gain weight but i want a healthy baby... i wont allow myself to gain more then 15lbs ..... i kno it sounds awful but im actually eating way more then i normally do in my ED .... im trying i kno its still not "normal" amount but to me its way more than usual...
i also have trouble with laxative abusee
ugh im all screwed up i got pregnant in the peek of my ED.... :"( im so lost...
please reply if ur going thru the same or have gone thru this..

 
By CK on Thu, 12-15-11, 11:33

People with an eating disorder usually have their symptoms worsen when they feel that their life circumstances are outside of their control, an ED is always compromising to one's health, but when you are pregnant you have a whole other person to think about. This does not make you a bad mother, just a mother who is suffering from an ED. I would definately let your OB/GYN know about this so that they can monitor you carefully and I would start therapy if you are not currently in treatment. This is not a form of weakness, but a form of strength reaching out for help when it is most needed. Here is a toll free number to speak to an ED specialist who can answer any questions you might have as well as help you find treatment in your area, 1-866-222-1883.

Wishing your strength during this trying time.

CK

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By abcdefg on Thu, 12-15-11, 12:24

Unfortunately I know what you're going through as I suffered with eating disorders and mostly bulimia while pregnant myself and would love to talk with you. I'm new and trying to figure this site out but would love to help you and at least talk about my experience. I hate to say this but I took diet pills for several months of a pregnancy to make sure I didn't gain weight. I was that afraid of gaining weight despite wanting the child to be healthy. I also struggled with purging but tried to keep it to a minimum throughout the pregnancies. It is so hard to deal with ED's and much harder when you realize that your baby is relying on you and that you need to be healthy for both of you.

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By julieebabyy on Fri, 12-16-11, 02:00

if you dont mind me asking ... was ur baby born ok?
and im ashamed to say that ive been drinking laxative tea everynight..... i was doing it before i was pregnant and just havent stopped ... i love my unborn baby.... but my ED has this hold over my life .... even tho i kno at least im eating a lil bit more i kno to the rest of the world its not enough.... but hey at least im trying right? its just so hard :"( im already planning how to get rid of any weight i gain after i have my baby....im so consumed by this... its been years and it only seems to get worse :(
theres a part of me that wants to recover for my baby... and another part that yea wants to recover while im pregnant but get back on "track" afterwards..... idk if u kno what i mean?

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By abcdefg on Fri, 12-16-11, 06:40

I sent you a message getting a little more into detail.
I know all to well what you mean, and yes the baby did survive and is healthy but if I had to do it over again I would have done more to not have done the things I did while pregnant. You just don't know, and I wouldn't want to regret.
It's a constant battle, wanting to be thin and feel control over the eating disorder, wanting to be healthy for the children.
I don't want them to see and pick up on my habits and struggle like me.
I feel more of a need than ever to overcome this once and for all.

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By abcdefg on Fri, 12-16-11, 06:42

I would let your doctor know though about your struggles with ED if you can find the strength to do so. I did and they were really nice and helpful and I hope the same for you.

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By kw5694 on Fri, 01-27-12, 09:05

Hi , I am so sorry to hear about your suffering with pregorexia. I was wondering if either of you would be interested in speaking to me about what you are going through in order to produce a magazine feature reaching out to others going through something similar and raising awareness about this eating disorder? You would be paid for your time and trouble and we offer full copy approval. Please contact me on kw5694@live.com if you would be interested.

Thanks,

Kate

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